i am do not know how to put my insides into words on this screen. i am so happy, so very happy about the past three days of my life, and i am sad, too. i can't deny how i feel about someone. i can't deny that the dream could be coming true. i can't deny that it is real. i wouldn't want to if i could.

in the midst of that, a special someone is moving far away. at first glance, this seems so very bad and ill-timed, but i have to trust. i have to trust that what the princess says is true. i have to trust my god. i have to trust myself to not believe what part of me is whispering about this not being real. at second glance, i realize that my joy and peace in this far outweighs whatever physical limitations may be placed on me or "us", as it were. the truth is, love may be blooming, and no amount of distance can halt the growth of love that is real.

this is how i feel and what i am thinking about this morning. a princess cares for me, and i want to always care for her.